Denimbeard's Journal

Exerpts from my writen journal.

Month: September, 2016


Pi day!

The other day I requested that a room mate move out of my apartment. He had been an ever increasing source of frustration and childish behavior, so we opted to request his departure. This of course went about as well as anticipated. Poorly.

Part of me was hopeful that he would take the news as an adult and respect the decision from his peers. This, of course, couldn’t be farther from the case. It is evident that he is broadcasting the apparent “backstabbing” far and wide. If that is his goal then I wish him luck. I will stand proud and strong in my opinion. My resolve is significantly more resilient then he gives credit. As I told Mae last night, my reputation is known as someone who stands regularly on the side of correctness. The longer he talks me down, the more obvious his flaws become to those around him.



Lets talk about positive change.

There are many aspects of my life that I would enjoy improving. My health, my relationships, my education. Taking small but meaningful steps and insuring that every step taken is worth your efforts matters. Finding your goals, your ambitions and sometimes these things are so organic that Logic cannot rationalize them. While the efforts of all sorts of philosophies try and explain humanities goals, one must be vigilant [I seem to really love that word] to their own minds.

As our cells regrow and change our goals and ambitions must also develop and grow. To believe that you have only one answer, only one path, is a fallacy. A fallacy only fulfilled by the death of ones soul. I would, and constantly do, ask those around me to always do the best possible work they can, not only for themselves but for those around them. A key part of maturity must be, and must be stressed, accepting that you can be wrong and can always do better.

As such, I am going to begin laying out realistic goals for myself to constantly improve.

Regarding Health:

Lets start eating better.

-I want to start grocery shopping every Friday for my whole week.

Lets look into doing home workouts again, or joining a gym. Talk with dad.

I’ve already started the conversation but get with Lombardo about mental health aspects. Talk to her doc, see what you can do to improve.

Embrace boredom!

Start removing clutter from your room and phone. Get rid of time wasters. You need to improve your experience around you.

Pick up a fucking camera, use your eyes.

Regarding relationships:

Be more open. Trust more. Be fearless.

For what is death but the next challenge?


A living wage. A concept that has persisted for a number of decades, yet continues to raise more questions then answers. So why not remove the minimum wage laws entirely and replace it with a universal pay structure? Avg income to be outside of poverty given to all of us would create an economy boom.

Best man speech:

“Ladies and gentlemen, as is tradition for events like these, I would be honored to offer a toast to the Bride and Groom. A great Roman emperor once said, “I consist of a little body and a [great] soul. Now to this little body all things are indifferent, for it is not able to perceive differences. But, to the understanding those things only are indifferent, which are not the works of it’s own activity. Whatever things are the works of its own activity, all those are in its power.”

Today, we witness the joining of two souls, and we celebrate in the combining of these once indifferent powers. Together, may they face challenges of strength and merit, and rejoice in peaceful comfort in one another.

A toast, to love and friendships.”

Fasted way between two points, fold the world around them. If you are teleported, are you still you? If I have a book and replace the paper and the binding, is it the same book?



Mom had her birthday yesterday and my grandfathers is in two days. Today’s the first day that dad has been home. I hope that these two can deal with their conflicts and more past the pointless and fruitless arguments.

I applied for a position at PayPal and turned it down. The job would have been very similar to what I do now and for drastically less pay. However, I applied for an online degree through Bellevue. Non-Profit Management and Organizational Communications. My goal is to work through the next few years here and acquire that degree in order to lead groups dedicated to actual change. If I’m lucky, It will allow me to find meaningful work in one of the three major issues I advocate for. Youth homelessness, food access and mental health acceptance.